I decided that given my diagnosis 7 years ago of type II Diabetes, I would dedicate my life to living healthier. Then, I started college and I was living meal to meal never really watching anything or carb counting or any other health sustaining choice your supposed to be doing with that prognosis. It was difficult to comprehend that even though I was active, running from class to class and always, “on the go”, that did not classify as exercise either. I was kidding myself, or convincing myself that I was doing all I could. This illness runs in my family. All the women on my mothers side of the family have T2D. I had a wake up call when my mother finally lost her vision due to complications of the illness and I decided that I didnt want to live that way. I had too much life left to live and too much world to see. I thought what kind of a person would let themselves go blind if they could prevent it?
I started exercising, label reading, I even took a class in type 2 management. I attend an annual refreshers course on the complications and preventative measures associated with Diabetes. I am too young and too educated about this to not know better. I lost 30 pounds in a month and was stoked only to start dealing with a bout of depression and I regressed. I was dealing with being homeless, and family issues, and living on less than any person should have to in this day and age. Even while going to school and pitching in my little paycheck from my state work study which, was a maximum 20 hours a week. My mother’s health began to decline rapidly so I had decisions to make. I stopped my care and focused on her. Im not complaining or asking for a gold star, Im just trying to get my point across that we all live under different circumstances and we shouldn’t judge people when we don’t understand what they’ve been through.
I’ve gained all my weight back since then and a whole lot more…
My health has taken a turn and I am no longer the sort of healthy girl I was in my early twenties and its become obvious by the signs of floaters in my eyes. This is how it started for my mother. I’ve decided to ultimately pull my head out of my ass and get back on the fast track to healthy living.
Now, instead of a diet, I’ve started a complete lifestyle change. I need to get my mind, body and diabetes under control. So my official new life began yesterday. I begin my day with reading a love quote from a small calendar that was given to me by a special person. My next step is to integrate a 15 minute meditation, for example the awesome yoga youtube videos make a great tool. I will increase it as I see fit. Im not rushing and thats the point. Also this isnt set up for me to do bright and early in the morning, the hell with that. If my second shift and insomnia cause me to wake up at noon, well guess what? This process will start at that point. Its 7am somewhere right? The important thing is that Im fitting it in. The rest of my day will consist of healthy eating, I will post awesome new recipes I’m trying and pictures of what my attempt looks like. Im also taking some time out to write which is something that used to give me pleasure and relieves stress for me which, is part of the mind synch. This is a learning process for me and I want to record my days using this blog. My moods, my stress, if Im feeling hopeless or exhilarated. For now, internet people… you are my therapist…
Lunch today was pretty simple, luckily enough I live closed to a good market that has a fresh produce salad bar… I added some chickpeas for more fiber and a few shakes of a sesame noodle to add some snap to it. It was also my first time with Chobani greek yogurt, or any greek yogurt. I chose pineapple of course for its delicious flavor. Im sure Shawn Spencer would be happy. Those of you that watch Psych will understand that reference if not… wait for iiiiiiiiiiiiiiit! hehe.
Now for dinner… tonight I decided on pasta to remind myself that I can still have my favorite foods just portion control and replace some of the less healthier ingredients with healthier ones. I used a multigrain pasta and those of you who are in doubt, give it a try. Its not as bad as it used to be and it tastes pretty much the same. I also opted for a lighter sauce and bought one that had less sodium, and fewer calories. Prego now makes a heart healthy line and its pretty good and I replaced the ground beef/sausage with a ground turkey just added a teaspoon of olive oil to make up for the less fat. Came together nicely and I made a good sized side salad with a vinegar dressing eating it first to fill me up so I wouldn’t crave so much of the pasta.
Not sure whats on the menu for tomorrow but you know I will post it no matter what.
For now, Im going back to watch my season 4 of CSI:NY!
Over and Out